I came to CSM panicking about how to curate my projects. But after seeing all the portfolios from different previous foundation students I calmed down myself.
I always see that my work is very different from my classmates. This used to worry me a lot but today I've seen diversity of portfolios and it's very encouraging and hopeful.
EX FOUNDATION STUDENT'S TIPS:
1) DELETE INSTAGRAM. One of them told us that the best thing to do is to delete Instagram while doing the portfolio to avoid comparing yourself with your classmates, because at the end what people do is copying each other's.
2) MAKE A STORYTELLING: Show research, then development and the final outcome.
3) DON'T BE AFRAID TO JUST DO FABRIC SAMPLE SHEETS
4) DON'T BE AFRAID TO JUST DO BIG ILLUSTRATIONS SHEETS
5) SHOW DIVERSITY OF SKILLS
6) WORK REALLY HARD AT CHRISTMAS
7) DO YOGA TO STRESS RELIEF
We started helping each others first in couples and then as a group on how to curate:
- The Neighbourhood-Colour project
- The Tactile Structures project
Tong told me that all my fabric samples were are elegant. Yoonsoo said my finishings were quite tailored and I should apply for menswear. Katie was passing by and she liked my Goldwork sample, I am not used to receive nice comments from tutors and it's encouraging.
I took pictures of myself to use the different profiles.
I was really motivated curating my Neighbourhood-Colour project in the studio. Frances told me she liked the textile sample that I was illustrating and I was really pleased, as this is the second day in a row receiving nice comments from tutors.
At the end of the year, it might be light at the end of the tunnel!!!!!!
ILLUSTRATION CLASS WITH JOHN BOOTH: THE MOST HELPFUL AND ENCOURAGING LESSON AT CSM
JOHN'S ILLUSTRATION TIPS:
1) CREATE TEMPLATES BY DOING OUR OWN FACES AND FEET: Instead of doing a live drawing class, we created templates by focusing on faces and feet. John said that this is a way to save time when designing garments, as we can focus on the design. I was really stuck when doing faces, as I always avoid to draw eyes and I tend to use tape instead. I told to John my problem and he gave me a sheet of shaped stickers to play with them around the eyes. This just made my day, as I was happily cutting them and trying to illustrate my classmates' faces.
2) DRAW FOOTWEAR AND HANDS BY USING PICTURES: I used to take pictures of my Dr. Martens boots from different perspectives to then draw them and I was quite afraid of my limit to do it just by using my mind. It was a relief to know that professional illustrators also use imagery to draw hands and shoes.
3) USE COLOUR PALETTE FROM YOUR CURRENT PROJET: I was strategically using since the very beginning of the class oranges and blues (linked to my colour project) and John just made me smiled when he recommended doing it.
4) USE THE FACES AS PRINTS
5) MAKE STICKERS WITH FACES AND ILLUSTRATIONS
This has been the most inspiring illustration class ever. I'm a big fan of John Booth and he was extremely helpful to me. All the colour and everything around him is just incredible.
INSPIRED BY JOHN BOOTH:
I went home to change environment and I quickly opened my luggage with all my media to keep illustrating. I started applying John's Booth's class into my curating project and I was quite happy with the results.
Tong is definitely my muse and I wanted to use her as the model for my last project. I drew a print pattern using Tong's face from John Boot's class. I also finished a live drawing illustration I did of Tong in Petra's Börner class by adding colour. I used the "Tong Faces Print" on "Tong's trousers".
I clicked with Tong since the beginning of the course. She is slightly mature from most of my classmates (like me) and one day she told me that her preference was to sit with no Chinese as she knows already everything about her country. I saw an insight on this, as I feel the same. Discovering diverse people and knowing about other cultures is what really fascinates me. In this project I'm criticising Catholicism as I saw in Israel how people don't embrace multiculturalism because of religion, and having Tong as my muse really works with the idea behind my project.
Illustrating Tong meets Iris Apfel (lol)
Tong Faces Print
We were supposed to bring 5 portfolio sheets but I only finished 3. I've got feedback from my mates and they really like my textile samples and how I was able to link all the projects:
-Colour and sculptures
They also recommended me to apply the samples on the body.
I was still so motivated by John Boot's drawing lesson and I just wanted to do more colourful paintings and prints using my project research.
I was randomly printing abstract chains (religion chains people's mind), then I cut the painting into peaces to finally collage them.
For one, I first painted stripes, as I was thinking on the stripped prisoner's uniform (chained prisoner's on Plato's Allegory of the cave) and then broken pieces of chains on top.
Print 1: Prisoner breaking from the chains
Print: broken chains
Print: broken chains
FINAL LINE UP: ME AT CSM EMBRACING DIVERSITY AND GETTING INSPIRATION FROM PEOPLE AROUND ME
I was thinking on how to make a non-conventional line up. In John's booth class I was drawing my classmate's faces as they were inspirational and I was really enjoying the diversity.
The Last Supper painting of Leonardo Da Vinci illustrates Jesus having dinner with the 12 apostles/disciples the night before Jesus was executed. They were Jesus's closest followers. Disciple is a Biblical term meaning learner or pupil. They were men who travelled with Jesus and learned from him. After Jesus's death, they separated and began to spread his teachings.
Jesus could not have picked a more diverse group of men; By human standards, the Twelve had very little in common with one another (one unpredictable fisherman, possibly one with a bias against Nazareth, a fanatic Jewish nationalist, a despised tax-collector, a skeptic/pessimist, two “Sons of Thunder” with explosive tempers, and a covetous betrayer).
In the Bible, twelve, like seven, frequently suggested completeness and perfection. In the Old Testament, twelve represented “all Israel” (place where I was shocked my the disrespect of believers).
Writings from the apostles are represented in the Bible's New Testament as metaphors to
Patricia Williams is unable to pass me for Part 1; The problem:
1) Uploaded any reflection on workflow for the past 3 months
2) Uploaded a sufficient amount of research on workflow
I'm always prepared for the worst but I'm not going to take stereotypical notions of success and I am going to embrace this failure’s lesson because failure is not always bad.
I admire people who can learn from success but my background tells me that I just learn by failing and apparently is how I make my future's performance stronger. Failure for me has been always constructive due to when you look back you just join the dots of your mistakes.
It's important to reflect on what I did wrong to avoid similar mistakes in the future. I'm utterly aware and I assume the absence of reflection on Workflow but I'm going to try to to understand the root causes:
1) The journey is more important than the destination at CSM:
I've got a dual mind and I deal everyday with my student thoughts vs corporate business thoughts. In the corporate world the results are the only thing that matters and efficiency is what counts. Clients just want to see the final outcome. Whereas, as student you've got to analyse and let tutors know your way of thinking.
2) Lack of free time
Working and studying results in not having a day-off since August and this really exhausted me. My level of stress is reaching its highest and It's hard for me to sit and reflect on my computer when I've got hundred other tasks to deal with.
3) Not pleased with my CSM outcomes:
The disadvantages of perfectionism are that you are never happy enouht with what you do. Instead of confronting the problem and deeply write about it, I make it an art to avoid all negative situations.
4) Misunderstanding what is CSM-reflection:
I didn't expect that my deeper feelings about my work or my way of thinking have to be exposed. I've got a reserved personality and I'm a quiet sufferer. I never express my feelings to anybody and "make my thouhts public" is really challenging.
NOT GIVING UP
When Patricia was talking to me, I was speechless and emotionless as I haven't slept at all.
On my way home, the feeling of giving up was in my mind but my positive soul reminded me that I've set my heart on this and I've invested a lot of time, all my social live, energy and money in this journey.I just want to prove wrong that part of me that was telling me that CSM and fashion are not for me.
Being expelled or invited to leave CSM is an option that might be made tomorrow but from my part, I'm not giving up.
LIKE A PHOENIX RISING FROM ITS ASHES
“Phoenix rising from the ashes” this phrase just popped into my head, as this is the story of my life.
The phoenix, a legendary bird, would live for 500 years.Near the end of its life, the phoenix would build a funeral pyre for itself, and as it began to die, it would lay down on the wood and burst into flames, consumed by the fire. Immediately the phoenix would re-emerge, renewed from the purifying ashes, more beautiful and regal than before.
I've got hope for my Workflow as I can reflect backwards from the daily written notes I take on my phone and handwrite on my notebook